"We do not stop playing because we are old,
We grow old because we stop playing."
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Lay ting, 15. I'm proud to be a daughter of God. I am generally quite a happy kid with my awesome family and friends but when I'm emotional it's best you leave me alone. I believe it's nice to be nice so I live to love. I am sadistic. I like gore. I like red and orange. I like garfield. I like jumping. I like taking pictures. I like Christmas. I like hugs and people who make me feel special. I am often insecure. I am emo. I am hyper. I am noisy. I am very loud. I am fierce. I am awesome. I play floor ball. I like dancing. I wanna dance. I wanna be a superstar. I wanna see monsters. I don't like people who stare at me. I don't like poseurs. I don't like chocolates, sweets, cakes and ice cream. I don't like guys who hurt girls. If you agree that I am so awesome, Tell me here.

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what do you want from me.
11:34 PM
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
I know I haven't talked about my family problems for quite some time but this time I really really have to destress. I'm trying so hard to be nice now but you know the freaking devil is obviously still inside me right. Do you guys even understand how hard it is for me to change? To swallow my pride? And what the hell is with your "I totally regretted giving birth to a person with no future like you." I'm having so much stress and all, so I asked for your permission to go out after school to study and of course destress and you allowed. But now you're blaming me for going home late and calling me a useless kid who only knows how to use the computer? Despite how sad and how tired I am, I know I have to study hard to make my parents and teachers proud of me. I know I need to do it to earn their trust. That's why i'm trying. But I'm human too, I got my emotions. You said I don't share my problems with you anymore and only tell my friends, that's the reason you think I'm hurting you. But you won't understand. Sometimes I really just can't take it anymore so I really don't have the mood to study for that certain day. If I tell you, will you understand? You'll tell me how bad my attitude is and all. Seriously, what do you want from me? I really need a break from everything. I'm barely holding on. School is like hell for me and I have to come home to face this?

If it's so tiring to be nice, then I rather not be.
I don't have to put on a brave front and pretend I'm so strong and comfort my friends, and try to help them when I can barely help myself. I don't have to act like I'm fine and try to help the rest in need when I'm not any better. It sucks to be nice.

Anyway, mid years' in two weeks. I wanna die. I swear.


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