"We do not stop playing because we are old,
We grow old because we stop playing."
i rock you.


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Lay ting, 15. I'm proud to be a daughter of God. I am generally quite a happy kid with my awesome family and friends but when I'm emotional it's best you leave me alone. I believe it's nice to be nice so I live to love. I am sadistic. I like gore. I like red and orange. I like garfield. I like jumping. I like taking pictures. I like Christmas. I like hugs and people who make me feel special. I am often insecure. I am emo. I am hyper. I am noisy. I am very loud. I am fierce. I am awesome. I play floor ball. I like dancing. I wanna dance. I wanna be a superstar. I wanna see monsters. I don't like people who stare at me. I don't like poseurs. I don't like chocolates, sweets, cakes and ice cream. I don't like guys who hurt girls. If you agree that I am so awesome, Tell me here.

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10:58 PM
Sunday, January 31, 2010
You always give me a feeling of me being the extra one, a feeling of you not wanting to talk to me at all, a feeling i hate, a feeling I've never felt before, a feeling telling me to give up. Should i? This question stabs me everyday and I doubt i can survive the new year fuck.  I hate this.



8:41 PM

EH I LOOK BETTER IN SEC 1 MEH? 
comment hor. LOL




5:48 PM

I MISS 2A.
and i like this picture cause Daryl bff and i both look nice. LOL



4:12 PM

WAH ACTUALLY THAT APPLE MANGO TUTI FITTI FLAVOURED LOLLIPOP NOT BAD UHH 


Without you, unglued.
4:09 PM

You know life don't suck despite the pathetic number of homework and problems when you can sit here in front of the computer the entire day, doing homework and chatting with your best friend online with a apple-mango-tuti-fitti flavoured lollipop in your mouth, thinking of the person you like! 

And gosh I think i just made the longest sentence in my life. Oh whatever, I need a sugar gar gar rush! Getting hell tired of homework already omg. And the new Chupa Chups Magics lollipops has disgusting flavours, i make sure you get diarrhea the next day. Eat your shit.

BYE


Impossible.
6:43 PM
Friday, January 29, 2010
I like you.
Today's supposed to be a pretty awesome day. 

1. Recess was a total bitching session. :))))))
2. Chinese sucked because the bloody teacher blamed everything on me, and rocked because of Yuan. :)
3. POA test was unexpectedly doable. :))))))
4. We sang weird CNY songs after school with crazy weird people. :))))))
5. Tagged along with Marcus, Guo rui (Paul!) and one of their friend for jamming! :)))
6. Watched soccer match with Marcus and Paul. :)))))))))))))))))))))))))
7. Had a CONTRACT BOYFRIEND (HA HA HA SO FUNNY. if either of us "terminates" the contract we'll have to stand in the middle of the quadrangle, shout until the whole school turns, then do 200 push ups. CRAZY?)

But I just can't help but feel super lousy and empty inside. Crap.  


but i know you'll never like me.



I'll still try my best. I promise.
11:14 PM
Thursday, January 28, 2010
I don't like I don't like I don't like.

Don't dare? or don't care. I guess it's the latter. 


Zai jian lah zai jian. I feel so lousy now bai bai.
7:48 PM
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
1) I think I'm bitching too much these days. I kinda hate myself too. SERIOUS. Hell.
(haters must be like "well glad you know" all those shit. well sorry la! but most of the people i bitch about are the hot topics in school what. and if you did nothing bad to me, i obviously won't bitch about you. and yeah that's about it. roar)

2) Maybe it thought too much. Should i!?!?! K maybe i should.
no comments. bloody hell.


3) Catch up on homework! 
die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying dying DEFINITELY NOT DEAD YET!



11:32 PM
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
OMG I SWEAR MY MUM IS DAMN LAME!

me: mummy why butter so yellowish and margarine just so white one!
her: maybe cause for margarine, they used cabbage (bai cai) for their oil and for butter (nu you), they used an indian cow!
me: MUMMY! you are super lame lor...
her: HEHEHEHEHEHEHE



11:16 PM
Sunday, January 24, 2010
I GOT A QUESTION. In fact, two.

GIRLS WHO USE VULGARITIES, VERY TURN OFF MEH? 
cause a few friends told me people like me, but get turned off cause i was too vulgar.
and speaking of which,

I VERY VULGAR MEH? 
i kill you. i am not right! everyone uses the F word what!!!! at least i don't go "hello knn pcb buay song ah wu ji lai come 1 on 1 la ccb." right!!

*middle finger up*
(miss mara!)


I gotta feeling... that tonight's gonna be a good night!
12:06 AM
Saturday, January 23, 2010

TODAY WAS AWESOME. 
(Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)(Y) 


The last time.
3:34 PM
Friday, January 22, 2010

:(


WE, FTW.
10:54 PM
Thursday, January 21, 2010
BFF OK!
FTW = Fuck the World.
Break his/her heart and I'll break your face.
And I'm sure Jo knows what I'm talking about right! (winks)

Joanna rocks.
Yuan ling rocks.
Daryl rocks.
Casper rocks.
Andrea rocks.
Jane rocks.
Carina rocks.
Hui si rocks.
Kelsey rocks.
Bertrand rocks.
Alicia rocks.

(sorry if i missed you out, but you know i still love you guys, muak!)


Distraction.
7:37 PM
Monday, January 18, 2010


HELLO DON'T YOU THINK GARFIELD IS JUST SO CUTE!?!?



6:39 PM
Sunday, January 17, 2010
I am tired. Very tired.


Right now na na na.
2:16 PM
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Peer leaders rox2themax!

Rushed to school to meet Yonglin and Aliff, har har har. Imran and Shyna came shortly after. OKAY NVM SKIP SKIP SKIP. We sold the coupons for the charity car wash to the PSG! Yayyyy. I think it's meaningful so I really want to do this right! When given a task, do it well. The funds are for the FAS people, in order for them to go for BIND with us! Everyone deserves a chance. :D

Lunch @ Simpang with Yonglin, Aliff and Imran! Saw Kevin and chatted for a while before going home. Out again @ 3! :D






Sux2you.
9:44 PM
Friday, January 15, 2010
Common Denominator.
HI. School was fine today except for the EL Diagnostic Test which was fucked up.

After school and the test, I went down to the band room to put my bag before going to the HOD room but Abraham wasn't there so I went up to the staff room area! Talked to my seniors and decided to go in to get Ms Foo after her dumb dumb message! And har har har I stayed there and chatted with her and Ms Poh for an hour or so before asking Jasmine to bring my bag to me cause I don't wanna go back to band anymore! Pwned. So I caught up with Ms Foo after so long. She's still the best teacher ever man. :)

Hello you are super noob lor.



Crazy.
10:31 PM
Thursday, January 14, 2010
HI. I have a sudden thing for korean people!
I think the people have really sharp features, super nice!
And no, I don't think Eurasians are that hot. Sorry har har har.


We gotta fight fight fight fight for this love.
9:09 PM
Wednesday, January 13, 2010





SUPZ. One word, Nerdified. (quoted by Rachel) 
Homeworkzxc like mad. Problems like mad. Busy like mad. Mad like mad. I am going mad.
Okie bye I shall go do my essay now lest I get fucked by my english teacher tomorrow. Scary.



I posted.
10:19 PM
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Everything sucks now.


I miss you fucking much.
6:53 PM
Sunday, January 10, 2010

I really really miss you. How?

Anyway, taiwan trip pictures are up on facebook.
And my life's really boring now so I have nothing to post.
Bye.


You are a loser.
9:37 PM
Friday, January 8, 2010
THIS WAR IS OURS.
FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!


What if I changed the world.
6:59 PM


HI. I didn't go to school today. I was UNWELL. HE HE BUT I immediately got out of bed and rushed to school to meet Jian hong after receiving a message woooooo. Went straight to banddddd's booth! Mr Rosk Carrot Cake, Miss Azleen, Ms foo and Mrs Thaven, I LIKE! Oh oh oh and the mic fell so the teachers got me to help. BUT I WENT UP AND DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO, fucking pai seh I swear. :( Bo bian, you know or not. LOL.

Yessssssssssssssssssssss I enjoyed today! Peer leaders rock toes, EXCO rocks you! Okay bye bye. :)


Life is fragile, yet beautiful cause of the people around me :)
5:02 PM
Thursday, January 7, 2010



Read my gan jie jie's blog last night.
I don't know what to say to her except for "cheer up" and "you'll be okay",
but I myself know it's not use and wouldn't help.
I too, just cried and cried.

But weike, if you're reading this, I want you to know that you're the best sister I've ever had and I love you. I really do care. I know it's not easy for you, but hold on okay. "Take a chance, and be strong." I'm positive that gan ma wouldn't want to see you like that too. At least she left happily and peacefully. You've been a strong girl, stay that way. Muak!

(Sorry, I don't have a proper picture with you! :( )



Oh anyway, school was better today. It's not good, just better than the other days. HA HA but tmrw will rooooock! Cca fair, go go go! Oh and I like my POA teacher! And as always, D&T rocked! :) Some people in class just sucks though. Boo to you, losers. I don't like you anymore, friend classmate.



11:49 PM
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
EH WTF IS WRONG WITH ME MAN


I can't think of anybody else that I hate to miss than I hate missing you.
5:41 PM


I'm not okay.


Crawl back into love.
5:01 PM






That day at parkway with Shermaine and Jing en! Check out Jing en's blog for the things I have done to her. HA HA (i asked if she could help me finish my piece of meat. she agreed, so i wrapped wasabi like a wanton in the meat before passing it to her. ROFL) OKAY check out the rest @ jinge-n.blogspot.com!







The 2nd day of orientation for the secondary 1s. The day the PLs got so angry. The day I almost cried due to anger, and yet cannot do anything. The day we got crazy over the labels. The day of my scary piano lesson. And the day when nick came over. :)


You love me, but you don't know who I am.
9:24 PM
Monday, January 4, 2010
Boo i don't like school.
Boo i don't like abraham.
Boo i don't like the way things are right now.
Boo i don't like what i'm feeling right now.
Boo i don't like how these things can affect me much more than i had expected.
Boo i wished i didn't like you so much.
Boo i don't like myself.

Boo everything sucks now.



HI
1:26 AM
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Bold all the things you've done in 2009

1. Did something you said you would never do.
2. Paid for someone who said they would pay you back but never did.
3. Lied about where you were.
4. Discovered a new musician.
5. Made something for a friend.
6. Got a new phone.
7. Got a new iPod/Zune/Mp3 player.
8. Watched three or more episodes of Saturday Night Live.
9. Made fun of someone.
10. Created a tumblr.
11. Flew on a plane for the first time.
12. Spoke in front of 15 people or more.
13. Met someone in real life that you originally met online.
14. Done something illegal.
15. Did your siblings chores for money.
16. Stayed up all night thinking about the worst thing that could possibly happen to later find out that you worried for nothing.
17. Hurt somebody you didn’t mean to hurt.
18. Hugged your mom or dad.
19. Baked a cake.
20. Made a new friend.
21. Lost an old friend.
22. Changed your views on society.
23. Laughed at something that wasn’t funny.
24. Got upset over something that wasn’t a big deal.
25. Had a horrible birthday.
26. Got a Facebook account.
27. Deleted your Myspace.
28. Cried because you missed old times.
29. Cleaned your room.
30. Have a new found appreciation for someone you never expected to.
31. Told someone you love them.
32. Told someone you hate them.
33. Screwed something up but didn’t mean to.
34. Received a gift.
35. Gave a gift.
36. Read a book that wasn’t for school.
37. Ate a lollipop.
38. Threw away something by accident.
39. Smoked a cigarette.
40. Ran a mile.
41. Switched schools.
42. Aced a test.
43. Wished you were in the past.
44. Got scared about the future.
45. Got yelled at by your parents.
46. Lost a family member.
47. Saw an old friend.
48. Went to church/synagogue/mosque.
49. Hugged a stuffed animal.
50. Said you’re going to make next year better.


Live high - it's not easy.
12:19 AM
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Everyday of my life has been very happening and I really have to owe it to the people around me. Love you people ha ha ha. But sometimes you all should try to understand why a certain person is doing a certain thing he/she usually wouldn't do.

I've been trying really hard to maintain the relationship between us by not saying anything hurtful or showing any form of anger/unhappiness in front of you guys, but really, how long can this last? I try to understand every one of you all, but who will understand me? No one. No more Akon, no more "Sorry, put the blame on me." for I guess I can take it no longer.

I understand everyone has problems of their own, but so do I. Please bear it in mind, nobody likes to be labelled behind their back.

Everyone needs someone to talk to, and I'm no exception. I just wanted to be happy, but it is just so hard. Nothing I do seems to please anyone. Tell me, what now.

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying.


Peer leader camp + Jane & Yuanling's birthday bbq!
10:03 PM
Friday, January 1, 2010





















SHOULD I POST ABOUT IT? Or not. 
Anyway, taiwan trip & countdown next time. DAMN LAZY. 


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